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Never underestimate my Jesus...	...when the world around you crumbles He will be strong

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Name: Stephanie
Location: Omaha, Nebraska, United States
Gender: Female

Interests: Well I like lots of stuff. Hmmm, my interests are: being around children, painting, writing, singing, working out, tanning, cooking, sleeping :), reading, studying, snow, sunsets, long walks,flirting with boys, hanging out with my friends and family,and drinking lots o' coffee!!!
Expertise: well i'm trying and studying to become an expert in the Russian Language. It's a blast! Ask me and I'll teach you some Russian!
Occupation: Student
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Friday, December 17, 2004

Relient K

Am I at the point of no improvement?
What of the death I still dwell in?
I try to excel, but I feel no movement.
Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?
Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you, you're wrong.
Never underestimate my Jesus.
When the world around you crumbles,
he will be strong.
He will be strong.

I throw up my hands.
" Oh, the impossibilities."
Frustrated and tired,
where do I go from here?
Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly.
Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fears.
I think I can't, I think I can't.
But, I think you can, I think you can.
I think I can't, I think I can't.
But, I think you can, I think you can.
Gather my insufficiencies and place them in your hands.
Place them in your hands.
Place them in your hands.

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So Iâ€™m totally excited. I just got done writing my first book! Itâ€™s a book with all of the poetry Iâ€™ve written so far in my life. Itâ€™s about 55 pages and I just have 5 copies of the book bided at Kinkoâ€™s yesterday. Iâ€™m giving a copy to some of my family members. I hope to find a publishing company so I can possibly get it published. That would be so awesome! But if any of you would like one, just let me know and I can probably make one for you. The cost for the binding is like 5 bucks so I would probably ask for like 7 or 8 dollars. Iâ€™m really excited to give them to my family, especially my grandma because for a long time she has told me I should do thisâ€¦but I donâ€™t think she will expect it at all!

Well, Iâ€™m off to Sioux Falls this weekend. Iâ€™m getting my hair done (which Iâ€™m also excited about) but more importantly Iâ€™m going to see my ex boyfriend of 2 or 3 years that Iâ€™m kinda sorta slowly getting back together with. I havenâ€™t seen him in like a year so Iâ€™m really nervous! It feels like everything is starting all over again. I have the nervous school girl gitters and my stomach has butterflies in it. Iâ€™m more anxious than nervous but I can feel my nerves working more. I have like 2 hours before I leave to go to Sioux Falls and I just know that the whole way there Iâ€™m going to be shaking and not be able to sit still. I wonâ€™t actually see him however until 10 pm but Itâ€™s gonna kill me the whole time before. The build up to that moment is going to really get to me. I really hope everything goes well and that this is what Iâ€™m supposed to be doing. I miss his family sooo much so I canâ€™t wait to see them either. His older brother and his brotherâ€™s girlfriend had a baby girl about a year ago and so I canâ€™t wait to see his niece. Agghhhâ€¦.I hate the anticipation of it all. Well Iâ€™m going to shut up now because Iâ€™m just rambling (because Iâ€™m nervous)â€¦.but Iâ€™ll keep you all updated!

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Thursday, December 16, 2004


Your full name::	Stephanie Marie Colan
Age::	19
Height::	5â€™1.5
Natural hair color::	Dirty blonde
Eye color::	hazel
Number of siblings::	1
Glasses/contacts?::	nope
Piercing::	belly button, ears 3 times
Tattoos::	no thanks
Braces?::	no
FAVOURITE
Color::	Pinks, blues, greens
Band::	Avalon, Dashboard Confessional & John Mayer
Song::	Daughters-John Mayer, Beautiful Disaster-Kelly Clarkson, Out of My League-Stephen Speaks
TV show::	FRIENDS what else
Movie::	How To Lose A Guy in 10 Days
Book::	Mere Christianity, anything by Max Lucado, and Case for Christ
Food::	Pretzels, Chinese and Mexicana
Flower::	Purple & White Daisies, Pink & Red Roses
Scent::	Ralph Lauren Blue, Abercrombie Now, Chanel Coco, Abercrombie 8
Animal::	Umm horses, penguins, cows and dolphins
Cereal::	Raisen Brain Crunch or Fruitie Pebbles
DO YOU
Play an instrument?::	Piano and voice
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?::	Nope, more like 6
Like to sing?::	YES!
Have a job?::	Yep, Iâ€™m a receptionist
Have a cell phone?::	Of course
Like to play sports?::	I love soccer! Tennis and volleyball
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?::	kinda
Have a crush on someone?::	Yes
Lived somewhere NOT in the united states?::	No, but I will soon
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?::	Umm Iâ€™m not sure
Have any special talents/skills?::	I can play the piano upside down
Excercise daily?::	Almost dailyâ€¦at least 4 times a week
Like school?::	Yes very much so
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?::	Umm never tired that one
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?::	yes
Speak any other languages?::	Yes, Russian pretty darn good and some Spanish
Go a day without food?::	Yeah
Stay up for more than 24 hours?::	Yes, but I would rather not
Read music, not just tabs?::	yes
Roll your tongue?::	Kinda but not very good
Eat a whole pizza?::	Umm I think my stomach would burst
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?::	Does walking out the front door count?
Cried to get out of trouble?::	Never needed toâ€¦my face was enoughâ€¦you know the puppy dog eyes
Gotten lost in your city?::	Yeah
Seen a shooting star?::	Yes, 4 or 5 times all last year
Been to any other countries besides the united states?::	Yes. England, France, Italy, Germany, Leichenstein, Austria, Switzerland, Ukraine, Mexico, Bahamas or the Carribbean
Had a serious surgery?::	Nope, but I am getting my wisdom teeth out in Jan
Stolen something important to someone else?::	no
Gone out in public in your pajamas?::	YES!
Cried over a girl?::	Well maybe a friendâ€¦yeah Iâ€™ve cried over a good friend many times
Cried over a boy?::	I couldnâ€™t even count how many times
Kissed a random stranger?::	no
Hugged a random stranger?::	Yeah I think
Been in a fist fight?::	no
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?::	heck no, but that would be funny!
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?::	Maybe when I was little
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?::	No but I would laugh at myself
Swore at your parents?::	maybe
Kicked a guy where it hurts?::	Yeah but it was a long time ago
Been in love?::	Yesâ€¦
Been close to love?::	Yes..
Been to a casino?::	Yeah in Las Vegas
Ran over an animal and killed it?::	No
Broken a bone?::	no
Gotten stitches?::	No not yet
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?::	Well it was still cold out does that count
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?::	No, I hate getting sick
Made homemade muffins?::	Yes, all the time
Bitten someone?::	Hehe J maybe
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?::	Yes lots of times
More than 5 times?::	yes
Been to niagra falls?::	No
Burped in someones face?::	no
Gotten the chicken pox?::	yes
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth::	Like 15 minutes ago
Went to the bathroom::	15 minutes ago
Saw a movie in theaters::	Umm â€˜The Villageâ€™
Read a book::	Currently Reading â€˜Mere Christianityâ€™ by C.S. Lewisâ€¦..its a great book
Had a snow day::	Maybe last year
Had a party::	Umm my senior year
Had a slumber party::	Not in a long long time
Made fun of someone::	I make fun of the guys I work with everyday
Tripped in front of someone::	Today, my new shoes keep making me trip over my feet
Went to the grocery store::	Just went there today for lunch
Got sick::	Umm not for a long time
Cursed::	Canâ€™t remember
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables::	fruit
Black/white::	black
Lights on/lights off::	on
TV/movie::	movie
Car/truck::	car
Body spray/lotion::	Umm I like both
Cash/check::	Cashâ€¦even though it hurts
Pillows/blankets::	Lots of blankets
Headache/stomach ache::	Umm neither
Paint/charcoal::	paint
Chinese food/Mexican food::	Umm I canâ€™t decideâ€¦.I like both too much
Summer/winter::	Winter/autumn
Snow/rain::	Definitely Snow! Lots of Snow!
Fog/misty::	misty
Rock/rap::	Rock
Meat/vegetarian::	Meat but not very much of it
Boy/girl::	Boysâ€¦duh
Chocolate/vanilla::	vanilla
Sprinkles/icing::	sprinkles
Cake/pie::	pie
French toast/French fries::	both
Strawberries/blueberries::	Definitely both
Ocean/swimming pool::	Umm I love the ocean but thereâ€™s lots of creatures in there that you canâ€™t seeâ€¦.
Hugs/kisses::	BOTH!
Cookies/muffins::	cookies
Window/door::	window
Pink/purple::	pink
Cat/dog::	puppies!
Long sleeve/short sleeve::	Long sleeve
Pants/shorts::	pants
Winter break/spring break::	both
Spring/autumn::	autumn
Clouds/clear sky::	clear sky
Moon/mars::	moon
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?::	Yesum
If you have, with who?::	Two people, one of them Iâ€™m still in love with
Are you single?::	Kind of
Are you in a relationship?::	Sort of
If so, for how long?::	hmmmm
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?::	yea
What is your idea of the best date?::	Romantic but not too mushy in a comfortable and relaxed environment where other people are around like in public
What was your first kiss like?::	Umm weird yet good
How old were you when you got your first kiss?::	I was in 8^th gradeâ€¦so like 13 or 14
Whatâ€™s the best experience youâ€™ve ever had with the opposite sex?::	Umm Iâ€™m not sure
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?::	yes
Have you ever been dumped?::	yes
Have you ever dumped someone?::	yes

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Friday, December 10, 2004

God's Will. Wow, those are tough words to swallow. In my life I've struggled with God's plan for my life. Like any stubborn human, I sometimes think that I know what is best for my life. And I even take matters into my own hands when waiting for His will takes too long. As I read the Bible, I have found that I am not alone. Many people in the Old Testament took matters into their own hands instead of patiently waiting for God. Patience is tough too. For us, in this hurried world, everything has to be done in a timely manner. God, however, is on no time schedule. We fail to realize this sometimes and when God doesn't reach our deadline....well we feel the need to act immediatly. When we act on our own accord, it only leads to disaster and devestation. Waiting for God to take action to our prayers is hard to distigush at times. How do you know what God's real will is? How do you read what might possibly be signs? So, you pray again for God to make it clear. But then again, the same questions arise. How do I know this is God speaking to me? Are these really signs to lead me to my answer? It can be very confussing. I want to follow God's plan in every aspect of my life; but I become deeply confused at times because I do not know how to tell. In the Bible, it seemed that God made it clear, very clear, what he wanted from his people. Now days, he makes it hard to read. I have this one decision that I need to make in my life. I've prayed and meditated on it day and night. I've asked God to give me clear signs and to lead me to what I must do, if I must do anything at all. I've waited. The urge to make this decision has grown so strongly that I feel I cannot wait any more. So, I don't know whether this urge is a sign from God, or just my human ways. I am completely confussed and torn inside. Now, I even dream about it. I cannot think about anything else but this choice. I just feel like falling to my knees and shouting to the sky, "What do you want me to do, God! I just want to please you, but please tell me how! I'm confussed, hurt and tired, Lord! Where are you?"

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There once was this boy in love with a girl, however the girl became very confussed. She indeed did love this boy, but needed to find her own peace of mind. The girl traveled the world, in search for diamonds, ribbons and pearls. She thought there must be another greater than he, another boy that would make her happy. As she searched and searched nothing she did find, but heartache and misery from mankind. She then become oh so blue, and no longer knew what she would do. Her heart it told her to go back to her love, to go back and give him kisses and hugs. She knew that this is what she did want, but how could he love her still, she thought. "I've done so much wrong and hurt him so deep. How could this love we had he still keep?" She packed all her things and got on a plane. She could not want to get back home again. She ran up the driveway and into her house, she even was wearing her favorite blouse. Yelling his name she ran in a hurry, she tore up the stairs in a furry. Her heart beated fasted as she approached her room, suddenly she heard a great boom. She peared in the doorway to she him there, she ran to him and said a prayer. He opened his arms to recieve her embrace. He held her close and kissed her face. "I'm sorry my love, I was so wrong. I'm sorry it took me so long." "I knew you would come back someday to me. I knew you would so I did not worry you see." They stayed there wrapped in each other's arms. He loved her and kept her safe from harm. And that is how love always goes. One doesn't and one always knows. When you love someone let the go. And they will come back to you so and so.

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